whew. been working so much lah! haha. working mon tues wed and worked on sunday too!!!! tts like the longest run of working tt ive ever done. anyway, i got my pay, and its dismal! haha more dismal than i thot it would be lah :s but nvm!!! im qt ok with it i guess haha. anyway today was freezing in coffee club lah! and oh so exciting, the part time cook, gloria, wants to be a missionary too! and its so interesting lah. her calling is to be like a chef- missionary! so shes been going on short term trips to thailand to help set up bakeries and teach pastry baking and stuff! so yah. tts how she is building relationships and stuff. God really uses us in all ways and means :) so when she graduates from bible college she is going to thailand to be a full time missionary! so inspiring :)

anyway, i did qt in the morn today! yay. clap clap. not really morn lah. it was 12 by the time i woke up and stuff. so yah. but thats not the pt! haha.

anyway is my face REALLY scary????? pple at work keep telling me to relax when im like not stressed at all. they say i like looking very fierce. and michelle said i asked the customer where he wanted to sit very fiercely! but i din lah. gosh. im not a fierce person rite?!?!?!?!?

i wanna go poetry slam! :) and twelth night! haha. james come back fast k. ill miss you at driving class! if i even go tt is :s

anyway i learnt something today tt gave me alot of peace of mind! that i should not try to force myself to love HER but instead rest in the love of God. we love because He first loved us. its really reassuing to know that it doesnt have to be such a struggle after all. thank You so much for loving me. i know that Your love will see me through and because of it i will be able to love the person i find so hard to love.

anyway. char told me something just now tt has like planted bad thots in my mind. i dun want it to start all over again :s pple shld not spread rumours unless they know it for sure lah. nvm i will just ignore. and if i do tt (spreading unfounded rumours) pls slap me!